LOCKDOWN

Three weeks into the lockdown and how am I feeling?

I'll admit, in the beginning, my senses were reeling.

I couldn't believe what was happening at first and I made sure I kept myself busy,

because everything was making me dizzy.

I was determined to make my day fulfilling.

 I knew the experience would not be thrilling.

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Although I have to admit, I had a heavy head for three weeks before that.

It was something that I had to work at.

Then, I couldn't sleep and was constantly looking at the news.

Which really gave me the blues.

 I also slept in late,

and I was unaware of the date.

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I was shopping for three families and I was doing it once a week.

A break I wanted to seek.

I was scared to go out more than that.

I was eating food and getting fat.

Then, I decided to do my shopping one day, and their's the next.

It worked, and I started to feel less stressed.

Then my washing machine broke, and I had to rely on my dad to do my washing,

Which was kind of crushing.

But it worked out well, because he was self isolating and wanted something to do.

Thank you.

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How do I feel now I hear you say,

well, I'm alright today.

I've stopped stuffing my face and feeling down,

I know I can't go to town.

I no longer feel as though I should be busy all the time.

 I know that it's going to be a long climb.

I think the word I am looking for, is acceptance,

of this thing called social distance.

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If I am not busy, I do not fret or worry,

I do things slower, and I do not scurry.

Although this war against the virus is still in my head,

I've lost that feeling of dread.

I now find joy in nature, friends and family,

everything that is special to me.

But mostly, I feel humble and have great respect for the heroes who are caring of us,

because despite the dangers, they do their work with little or no fuss.

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I have a sense that we are in this together, when I watch people singing and dancing online.

Even though I know, that things may not turn out fine.

I have no right to feel down or depressed, when  key workers are giving their lives for us.

Everything else is superfluous. 

How do I feel now?

HUMBLE